It should be me!
Sitting down here
while watch beautiful moon and star shining in the dark. When look at the moon
suddenly he appeared in my mind. Duh, why must him? To be honest, when stared
the moon I was really hope he will do the same thing like I do right now. Hopeless…
The past going
through my mind…
I was reading my
book sitting at the bench in front of science lab while waiting teacher for permission
to go in. Suddenly something was fall at my head. I guess it come from up
because there is a class in the same building I sat.
I looking up and
look someone was smile at me and shouted “Hey, nerdy girl! Sorry that was
accidental.”
After shouted on
me he going to I don’t know where he go. I’m not giving an answer because to
focus on his look. Duh, why me huh?
Bored mood come
on me when nothing to do. After exam, I don’t have any mood to study. I think
it’s time me to have a break after I to focus on book, book and book until they
(people in school) love to call me ‘nerd’ or his word is ‘nerdy girl’. Eh, just
now I talk about him? Okay ignores it, I should not remember of him. It’s hurt
because I know I’m not very suitable with him. He can have beautiful and more gorgeous
than me. Yeah…
I online my
facebook. Well, who said people like me that love to read book, book and book
don’t have social life. I have too. But rarely online.
I don’t know why
my fingers typing his name on search friend. Duh, what happen on me?
What the hell
goings on? When he and I being friend here? I’m lazy to think about that so my hand move
the mouse and start stalking him. I don’t know why I’m doing this even I know
it will hurt me too much!
I move the mouse
and click on his album. Before this actually I don’t care about him much but
after that moment, I don’t know why I can’t remove him in my mind. What type of
‘something’ he give to me until I’m being like this? Lol.
Wow! How many
girlfriends she had actually? Every album every month he update his new
girlfriends and I was think it should be me beside him. It should be me hug his
arm while snapping sweet pictures. Ahh, stupid I am think this too far! It was
just in my dream!
Hurt + broken +
hate = tired. So I just offline my facebook and my laptop too. Then lying on my
bed while eyes keep stared the fan at top of me and my eyes going close… close…
and I sleep with a sweet dream I had tonight.
I was walking in
the beautiful garden like a princess with a beautiful dress suit on me. Touch roses
that surrounding me and smell it. Nice!
“Bella!” someone
shouted my name. But who?
“Bella!” again I heard
someone call my name. I try search where the voice come from but nothing I saw.
“Bella! I’m here darling!”
what? Darling? Who was dare call me that huh?
I don’t care with
it so I just walk away and suddenly someone hold my hand from back. I look at
the back and I saw… him?! Is that him?
“Bella why are
you running away?” he asks with his hand still hold my hand.
I just keep in
silent. I don’t know what to answer.
Look at him and
he smile. I’m looking down after that. I thought my check already turn to pink.
Blushing!
He suddenly takes
off his hand from me and knee down. He smiles. He takes my hand again with
right hand and his left hand with diamond ring was try to wears to my finger. I
was shocked!
“Erm… Alex what
is this?” I asked.
“Would you be
mine, Bella? Be my soul. Be my other half? I love you Bella!”
Pappp!
“Bella! Wake up
dear. You will late going to school!” mom shouted beside me after throw a
pillow on me. Pfftt.
“Urgh! Mom, you disturbing my sweet dream!”
“What ever! Now
wake up! Or you will late going to school dear! Wake up!” ahh, my mom! If I’m
not wake up from my bed she will scream without had full stop! Damn!
“Okay, fine!”
Actually, I don’t
need going to school after exam but yeah my mom forced me for going to school. Huh!
I had no choice so just go. Besides, I miss him. Duh, if mom not wake me up I
must be had a lot of sweet things to do with him even it just in a dream. I don’t
care!
I just walk
going to school because I love to have fresh environment here. Natural on me. Love
green in peace.
Suddenly my heart
beat very fast and it’s hurt too. I saw him in car that stops for traffic light
and beautiful girl was hugging his arm with cheerful mood. He also smiled! I hate
his smile because it not for me! Stupid!
It should be me there. Laughing with him. Hug
his arm while land on his shoulder.
It should be me have his smile! Aww, he really
make me melting!
It going more
hurt when she kisses his check and he go away after traffic light turn to
green. Duh, it should be me kiss him! Hate it!
Today, I’m going
to school with bad mood and back from school with same feelings too. Huh!
*sigh*
It been 3 years
past but I still think and miss him. Where is him? Did he marry yet? Or he had
many a child now? I don’t know about him! After graduate from school, dad had
to posting to other place so we need to follow him. I thought it goods for me so
I can easily remove him in my heart and mind! But… it’s not easy…
What I do to
confess my miss to him is keep pray and every night going out while looking to
the shining moon in the dark. I wish that he will have done the same things
too.
“Ouch!” I shout then look to the man who breaking my
shoulder.
“Eh, sorry miss.
Really sorry because I need to hurry!” he said.
“Alex?” I asked.
He really him! How
can I forget him someone that I love even 3 years had passed?
“Sorry? I know
you before?” he asked weirdly.
Stupid me! I should
know that he didn’t know me well. Now I’m not wearing spectacles like before of
course he doesn’t know me! Only I know him well. Only I crush on him. Only me!
“I…” I wanted
to say but…
“Baby, why are
you still here? Let’s go.” A girl come from where suddenly hug his arm with a
jerk.
“Sorry. Need to
go. Hope meets you again because I need to know where you know my name. Bye.” He
smiled and goes with her.
“Hope too…” I
just said for my own.
Again. We meet
after three years but hurtles I had. He now with his new girlfriend I guess and
that title should be me even I know I can’t.
Just hope. Just dream.
Just nothing!
Fighting Bella! You
can do it! You can forget him! Fight for freedom!
Yeah, that what I’m
doing right now. Maybe I will have a new life with new happiness after I forget
him. Well, maybe God choose other man take care of me not him. Keep in trust
His faith!
Keep smile Bella!
The End.
p/s Hello reader! Hmm, this story Mia ambil masa lebih kurang 2 jam type and terus post sini. Hehe xD Tak tahu mana datang idea buat cerita ni. Mungkin pengalaman atau mungkin khayalan dari otak kot. Entah. Okay, enjoy reading more here :) Thank you!
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